Friday, January 07, 2005
Same Ol' Same Ol'
Ever wonder how one's life gets into a routine, and one doesn't realize it till very late in the day? I am told that it is a very common phenomenon. Apart from being told, I have seen many people falling into a routine, and waking up one fine day - usually long after the routine set in - and saying, "Oh my God! What has happened to me? How did I become such a creature of habit?" I can say that it is not the case with me...
Oh, no, I am not saying that my life is very exciting and is not in a boring old routine. No Sir/Ma'am! I am very much in a rut (as I like to call it - others call it by different names). The only difference with me is that I tend to realize it early on. I can say well at the beginning of any endeavor whether I'd be falling into a routine, and whether I might enjoy it or not. For example, any thing about classes, and semesters, etc., is sure to throw me in a very very boring routine. Holidays, in contrast, were always good. OK, some people might say, "what do you do in holidays that's not usual? Get up, get ready, and go meet your friends, and hang out. So, what's new?" Well, I guess going out brought with it new things daily. So I beg to differ with those who may say that holidays also follow a routine... Well, I might even accept that they might be usual, but they were interesting at least.
That is, until now! This past vacation period, I don't know what the hell I did - 20 odd days in my life unaccounted for - following the pattern from the last four years! And now, the damn classes started. Yes, from one boring routine to another... Why, God, why? Why couldn't something have happened to me (something good I mean)? I was once enthusiastic, energetic, so on, so on... Now, all I did during vacations was sit home, sleep late, very late into the afternoon and did nothing after getting up! A day spent reading a book is awesome - didn't happen this time! A day watching TV is OK - decayed into another boring pastime! I even had some work to do - afterall, my advisor isn't paying me to cool my heels - didn't do any appreciable amount!
"Why this sudden despair over this boredom?" you ask? Well, that's 'cause I have a meeting tomorrow with my advisor and I am expected to show something tangible for the time I was supposed to have spent doing some work. So sat up the whole night doing some work - boring work again - and have to head out now again to the lab and put what I did on paper onto a comp, and pray that the damn thing works!! Keeping my fingers crossed...
I just realized that I called the work boring - well, to be truthful, I guess I never liked whatever Mech-related work I did till now. I am beginning to see that this thing ain't bad, and is in fact interesting! Why am I not able to bring myself to enjoy something I am feeling is interesting? What's happening here? Well... whatever... here's a resolution I am sure to break within two days flat - I'd change my ways a bit, and start working on time and in time!
Oh, no, I am not saying that my life is very exciting and is not in a boring old routine. No Sir/Ma'am! I am very much in a rut (as I like to call it - others call it by different names). The only difference with me is that I tend to realize it early on. I can say well at the beginning of any endeavor whether I'd be falling into a routine, and whether I might enjoy it or not. For example, any thing about classes, and semesters, etc., is sure to throw me in a very very boring routine. Holidays, in contrast, were always good. OK, some people might say, "what do you do in holidays that's not usual? Get up, get ready, and go meet your friends, and hang out. So, what's new?" Well, I guess going out brought with it new things daily. So I beg to differ with those who may say that holidays also follow a routine... Well, I might even accept that they might be usual, but they were interesting at least.
That is, until now! This past vacation period, I don't know what the hell I did - 20 odd days in my life unaccounted for - following the pattern from the last four years! And now, the damn classes started. Yes, from one boring routine to another... Why, God, why? Why couldn't something have happened to me (something good I mean)? I was once enthusiastic, energetic, so on, so on... Now, all I did during vacations was sit home, sleep late, very late into the afternoon and did nothing after getting up! A day spent reading a book is awesome - didn't happen this time! A day watching TV is OK - decayed into another boring pastime! I even had some work to do - afterall, my advisor isn't paying me to cool my heels - didn't do any appreciable amount!
"Why this sudden despair over this boredom?" you ask? Well, that's 'cause I have a meeting tomorrow with my advisor and I am expected to show something tangible for the time I was supposed to have spent doing some work. So sat up the whole night doing some work - boring work again - and have to head out now again to the lab and put what I did on paper onto a comp, and pray that the damn thing works!! Keeping my fingers crossed...
I just realized that I called the work boring - well, to be truthful, I guess I never liked whatever Mech-related work I did till now. I am beginning to see that this thing ain't bad, and is in fact interesting! Why am I not able to bring myself to enjoy something I am feeling is interesting? What's happening here? Well... whatever... here's a resolution I am sure to break within two days flat - I'd change my ways a bit, and start working on time and in time!
